I know it's been
a freakishly long time since I last blogged. I don't know in the beginning, I
wasn't in the mood to write anything, and then later on, there was nothing I
wanted to write on. Actually, there was lots of thing I wanted to write on, but
then, when you know your audience, you choose to not write everything that you
actually, really want to write about! Maybe, it's time for an anonymous blog
now!
Of late I've
been stuck up in the I-Don't-Wanna-Grow-Up Phase. Staying at LPU was fun. Life
was a fully paid vacation. Now a time when you have lots of time for your
family, friends and more importantly lots of time for yourself.
Anyways, one
thing that I hate the most, now you're considered as a prey whose wedding is
where everyone wants to feast. I mean, I know, I've always been of the “Mujhe
toh bachpan se hi shaadi karne ka shaukh hain” but then, now, I have grown up
and all of my "Bachpan ke shaukh" have worn off (only for the fact
that marriage is only going to make growing up look more serious and yeah the
mountain of responsibilities on your head is really what you should look at
mesmerizing. Yeah, so digressions apart, here is a piece of conversation that I
was subjected to 27 times last Sunday at a social gathering.
See, this is one
more downside of growing up - you have an attention span of a butterfly! I was
supposed to share with you the conversation I had 27 times the other day. It
goes like.
Me: (visibly
forced to mingle around) Hello, how are you?
Aunt: (visible
excited at the sight of a new bakra) I'm good. How about you? So which CLASS
are you studying in?
Me: (visibly
irritated at still being thought of as a school kid even at 27) I'm Research
Scholar now and have been studying for almost a year now.
Aunt: (visibly
more excited at the possibility of another wedding to attend) That's nice! So
now couple of year & then it's time for your marriage!
Me: (visibly
irritated with having the same conversation for one of the 27 times!) Ha ha!
Let's see!
So, my point is
why is marriage the next destination after studies? That's the entire problem
with our society. We just don't want our children to breathe. There's always
another destination to go to. Another train to catch, another job to take,
another assignment to finish. Why can't we just stand back and enjoy where we
are today? It's more peaceful and satisfying that ways. I know, marriage is
inevitable, but right now, I want to have some time for myself, because like
everyone my age, I'm too damned confused about what I want in life! A simple
example would be expecting an answer to the question - what is the kind of a
girl that you want? It looks simple, but it's not a simple question to answer.
You're confused about which are the qualities that you REALLY want and which
are the ones that you can let go of. And it's a tough call to take.
I'm sure this
post must be a real shocker to all those who know me well and are very well
aware of my 'Sabki shaadi ho raha hain, mera shaadi kab hoga' cries! But then,
like they say, people grow up and I'm trying to maintain pace with my growing
age!
Another reason
why you don't want to grow up is because you know there's another generation
behind you who's faster and smarter than you are and the fact that though
you're only 7 years elder to them, they consider you to be from another
generation. I was in for a shock when my 19 year old cousin made that very
clear to me when she actually said that I'm from another generation! And the
fact that all my younger cousins laugh at my lack of knowledge of technology and
still having a high end phone is a severe blow to the ego! What they don't
understand is that, self pity aside, vacation is all the time you have and
sleeping then is what you would love to do the most! Guess, I will have to wait
for them to come on this end of the line to know what it's like being called
belonging to a different generation!
P.S - Marriage
woes aside, now, I'm scared of what my kids, who's have a good 30 years age gap
with me think about me. If 7 years is another generation, 30 years would be
Stone Age!
Strong reason
for not getting married!
